Wednesday, May 26, 2010

life goes on

I love buying cards that have cool pictures. Usually they are blank on the inside which is fine because often the writing on the inside can ruin it for me. This card (by nostalgiaville publishing) here though says "in three words I can sum up everything I've learned about goes on." I picked it up while I was visiting wt and it was exactly how I was feeling. I've been sad lately thinking about wt's surgery and everything she would have to go through and I was a little teary on my flight out to see her. But once there, we didn't shed tears or lament. Surgery was over, it was done. No use crying about it. Life continues. We spent our time shopping, visiting friends, watching (sleeping through) movies and of course some doctor visits. We would find ourselves laughing at times and as wt tried to control herself I would ask her if it hurt to laugh. She would reply that it didn't hurt as much as sneezing:) One thing that really made us laugh was when I was vacuuming and wt was making a little video in which she was telling me that I should have surgery too so that someone could do all my housework for me! Yup, life goes on even after surgery. There will always be another dirty dish to wash, laundry to fold, a mountain to shred, a sunset to enjoy, a joke to share...

Monday, May 17, 2010

hanging with sis

Hanging with wt one week out from her pbm. Path was benign and things are going pretty well. I got a look at the new girls, or start of them. Don't even notice that she has no nipples because of all the black stitches running across her new mounds. I have seen many pictures of reconstruction and seen some in person but I don't think I've actually seen any with the sutures still in. It looks painful but they don't seem to be bothering her too much. It sure doesn't make me want to run out there and get mine done, although wt keeps telling me that I can do it! It kind of looks like the lacing of a football but pulled even tighter and the skin is all puckered up between the stitches. Tomorrow, if she's lucky, she'll get some of the stitches removed and possibly the drains. Ah, the drains...everyone seems to hate them. Not only are they uncomfortable they also limit what clothes you can wear. She has been sticking to some light weight sweatshirts she found at macys that have pockets on the inside where she can stuff the drains which look just like hand grenades. And they come in shortsleeve or longsleeve which is great because it is pretty muggy here.

Just going to chill this week and take walks, visit with her friends, nap and play with the little twins next door. I also got to see my other two sisters briefly yesterday before they had to head back home. I was supposed to get in saturday nite but missed a connecting flight and spent the nite in the motor city. Knew I was pushing my  luck trying to catch three planes.

That cool card above is by blunt cards,

Wednesday, May 12, 2010

help Lance

Received the following email from Livestrong this morning and just created my virtual biker. It costs nothing to enter (just requires your email and name) and by doing so, we can help raise money to fight cancer. Livestrong is a great organization that offers all kinds of help to people faced with cancer, such as finding cheap places to stay during medical treatment, support groups, legal assistance, etc. Click on the link below to join the ride and if we get enough riders, radioshack will cough up $75,000. It is FREE to enter!

We only have 48 hours...

Dear Janine,

i ride for
We have 48 hours to help LIVESTRONG raise $75,000 for the global fight against cancer. We need your help.
This morning we launched I RIDE FOR LIVESTRONG, a dynamic, virtual version of the Tour of California, where I will be racing starting on Sunday. This online event allows you to create your own virtual bike, tell us who you ride for (a survivor or caregiver who has inspired you) and race through the California landscape using your story to invite more people to join us in the fight against cancer.
When we talked to our partners at RadioShack about the campaign, they raised the stakes: If we can get 10,000 people to join the ride in the next 48 hours, RadioShack will donate $75,000 to LIVESTRONG. It’s an amazing opportunity and we are thankful for their support. But we can’t get there without your help.
This year, cancer will become the #1 killer in the world. If we get 10,000 people to join the ride, the $75,000 gift will go a long way toward supporting survivors and pushing leaders around the world to dedicate more resources to the fight against cancer.
The Tour of California, the largest cycling event in America, kicks off on Sunday, and each of us at Team RadioShack will bring a personal hero along for the ride. The I RIDE FOR stickers on our bikes will bear the names of survivors and caregivers who inspire us. At even the steepest climb in the race, they’ll remind us that, in the fight against cancer, unity is strength and no one should ride alone.
But we're just eight guys and there are millions of stories to tell. That’s why we launched I RIDE FOR LIVESTRONG, a virtual version of the Tour that allows you to create your own bike and tell your own story about who inspires you. Now, more than ever, we need to talk about the global cancer crisis—if something doesn’t change, one in two people will have to fight cancer by 2030. We have to fight back, we have to tell our stories and we have to push leaders around the world to dedicate the energy and resources necessary to see a world without cancer in our children’s lifetimes.
I RIDE FOR LIVESTRONG is a great way to build our movement and today we have a huge opportunity to generate support for the cause by raising $75,000. We need your help. Will you join the ride?

Lance Armstrong

Tuesday, May 11, 2010

there's more than one way to tell us apart

When we were little, wondertwin and I were pretty identical. We asked one time how did my parents know that they didn't mix us up at some point and were told that they could tell us apart by a birthmark I used to have. In grade school we wore matching uniforms. To tell us apart, my sister and I had to wear necklaces with our initial on them. As we grew up, it was easier to tell us apart. Once, while visiting dw's relatives, her grandmother announced that she could tell us apart because I was the fatter one! Well, there is a new way to tell us apart now, granny. We could simply lift our shirts. I'm the one with nipples:)

WT is back at home and doing great. Very cheery in fact, so I guess the drugs are working! First thing she said to me was, "Piece of cake. You can do it!" And she has said that about a thousand more times now. She can't wait to get a look at her 'chest in process' this friday. She underwent non-nipple sparing pbm with expanders.

Here is a picture of wt shortly after waking up from surgery, very alert. She sends her thanks to all the well-wishers.

Sunday, May 9, 2010

twas the night before wt's pbm...

I found the perfect card by american greetings the other day to send to wondertwin before her upcoming pbm (it's in the mail sis)! If only I could protect her (and everyone else) from the hard things in life, but I can't. I can just watch it happen and try and help her as much as I can. I'm trying to stay strong for her but it is hard because I know how she feels and how anxious she is and what she is about to undertake. I know what it feels like to crawl up on the table and wonder what you're going to look like when you wake up. I know she's tough and she'll do ok and will be happy when all is said and done but the anticipation leading up to surgery just sucks. Tonight, I will be taking a tylenol pm in hopes of getting some shut eye. My sis will most likely be awake most of the night. In the morning I will try and get one last call in to her before they wheel her into surgery then wait for updates from her dear friend that took the week off and flew in to take care of her. I will be flying in for week 2 and can't wait to give her a big, soft air hug. Much love, sis. See you on the other side.

Saturday, May 8, 2010

race for the cure video

The Salt Lake Komen Race for the Cure was this morning. Over 17,000 people were there and it was a lot of fun. All week I've been a little nervous about the event because I've been feeling kind of emotional. But I was fine at the race, in a great mood and no tears to shed. I was a little disappointed because I had to stop and walk a few times but I guess that will give me something to aim for. Here are a couple of videos I took. One is at the finish line and the other is some of the walkers at the end as we were going to our car. And here is a link to a youtube video taken of the event.